Day 1 of Log. Where should I start... Hello Dr.Dacted, I am writing in that log that you told me to... I guess.
Look... I am getting the gist of it, but you understand, don't you Doctor?
I guess I have always been pressured as a kid... to be the next prophecy!
You know what I'm talking about, 'The Void'! They said that only the smartest and worthy obtain it.
So, my parent's made me tutor... every single day. I didn't get to have a normal childhood.The fun beaches, the grandparents visiting, the running around in the rain etc. My childhood memories is just a text book.
That day came, Dr.Dacted! OH! THE DAY WHEN SOMEONE GETS CHOSEN!
My parents were hopeful, finally, I can be perfect in their eyes!
...
I wasn't selected.
ME!
A HIGH ACHIEVING STUDENT SINCE ELEMENTARY, ACING EVERY GAME, SPORT AND DANCE AND HERE I AM!
My parents never looked at me the same.
When I moved out... they were glad.
"All of our money, wasted on a child who can't return the favor for everything we've done."
...
I was thinking about suicide lately...
REALLY frequently...
Life didn't care about school, I wasn't the 'idol' everyone use to see me as...
Until, doctor, you wouldn't believe it!
I found a friend! A friend that gave me the will to live to see another day, a friend who's smile lights up
my world! They depend on me and I depend on them, doctor! I hope you're happy!
Day 2 of Log
Look at me, forgetting to write... after... a couple of months...
Me and my friend are bonding, Doctor! The medicine you prescribed to me is still full, I don't need them, Doctor...
I FEEL GREAT!
I probably sound crazy, but having a friend who sticks by me... who is there 24/7, is great!
Don't get me wrong dear Doctor... you are a friend to me, but if I am going to be honest.
I think you're just listening to me because I have money to pay you.
Selfish bi----
...
Look.
I am getting better. I have a purpose now. I love your smile Doctor...
Where did you learn to light up a room just like my friend?
Day 3 of Log.
DOCTOR! OH YOU WON'T BELIEVE IT! I CONSTRUCTED A ROOM, ALL BY MYSELF, WITHOUT FADING AWAY IN THE DARKNESS OF THE
SOUNDLESS, PAINFUL PITCH BLACK!
All by myself, Doctor... can't you believe it? It's secretive and protective! My friend loves it!
You're so nice to me, Doctor...
Would you like one too?
Day 4 of Log
I am panicking.
You haven't been ripping me off aren't you? I pay you 50$ an hour and you don't show up? At this point, what's the point in me
even writing? Are you sick? Are you Ill? Are you quitting?
Don't quit Doctor.
Day 5 of Log
:)
Day 6 of Log
I am terribly sorry... I have fallen quite Ill lately, so sick that I can't move out of bed!
I am glad you made friends. I am glad you have been so social.
I won't quit, though I am offended by the rude remarks of my occupation. How dare you >:0, that was a joke, by the way.
You did so well! I am so proud of you! Over coming those hardships. Look, it seems as if writing these stuff down and sending me it
is doing such a great job, wouldn't you say? Like Pen Pals, but we meet up and speak and write more in depth.
My door is always open if you need me.
Day 7 of Log
I know :) It's always open.
Ever want to meet my friend? He's nice. Maybe you can join him.
Day 8 of Log
Oh Doctor... I am seeing the world beautifully since you let me stay over, your colors are showing and the grass looks green in my eyes... the sky looks beautifully blue that your face... a tint of pink shows. This black and white world is fading... I want to go back. Everything you touch erases the thoughts of the monochrome world. My friend understands the world. Such a simple mind... he finally saw the world of what it is... I guess.
Mind over Matter.
Day 9 of Log
Mind over matter. My mind is okay.
Day 10 of Log
Oh dear, that sounds serious. I highly suggest you to take the medication I prescribed. This happened the same for Victoria Darling, she is currently under my care, so I deeply apologize if I wasn’t able to reply so quickly! :(
Null: Age 23.
Quite the amazing sight... someone with a void with little understanding of the world.
Means my suffering is for nothing. Whatever I did, it was all for nothing.
Nothing... nothing... nothing...
All that I could do to be associated with The Void is to just keep this guy, was this idea selfish? I have no idea how am I going to do it.
The room is made our of light panels so I can navigate around, I gave him food and entertainment.
Isn't this like... Rapunzel?
Trapped away, an 'idol' being under a lesser-being's care?
Mother and Father would be PROUD! Maybe, I am allowed to call them 'Mom' and 'Dad...
Guess I have to wait and see.https://confessionsofbright.carrd.co
I like to watch.
NOT LIKE IN A STALKER WAY, LIKE IN A COMFORTING WAY-
I find it nice when I talk to Null about Dacted. Null does want to meet him, but I can't show him!
So...I just take pictures and show it to him and scribble out all of the other people. He recently got hit with a sickness so Null can't see any pictures. I won't follow him to his house, we all have boundaries!
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Null is getting quite restless. He wants to see the real world. I guess I have to... manipulate the world around me to fit my horrid descriptions... Imma need a photo editor-
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Dr.Dacted is disappointed me. I said something what would drive him away. It's an innocent question!
"How was Mary?"
...
He never introduced me to Mary nor ever told me about his relatives.
He looked at me, disturbed.
I wonder why?
Probably because she was just visiting for a day and he never told me... c'mon Doctor Dacted, I tell you EVERYTHING about myself and you can't even open up...
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My family loves Dr.Dacted. They love his colorful demeanor in this monochrome world...
I always wonder where he got those colors from.
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The world shows in shades of black and white, but oh... that beautiful angel... looking at him makes the world to life. Away from the monochrome colors to separate the distance of the good and the bad, the light and the dark, the ying and the yang.
:0 What is this? I'm not restless, YOU'RE RESTLESS >:(
...Please don't put him through hell.
I AM NOT THE BAD PERSON HERE! I AM NOT, I AM NOT I AM NOT. That person attacked ME! I HAD TO DO IT. It was self defense! Null was my witness, HE WOULD UNDERSTAND. HE WOULD! HE SAW EVERYTHING! HE WOULD UNDERSTAND!
...
I actually took a life... I don't know how to feel about this...
It was thrilling... I think I found a new thing to make me stand out and finally be known. People LOVE killers huh? Maybe I should do that.
All that matters is the person isn't here to snitch.
And I have a great cover-up.
... please don't do that. You are in the wrong. I saw. You are in the wrong. I can't believe you did that to 'CAT'
Wrong way
Esvin was here.
"ShES DeAD my Lord, ShE's D-Ead." sobs "I DEFY YOU STARS!"
"I just want to go home, I want to be out in the world again..."
"Repeating repeating over and over.."
...Take what you learned
Sweet Death didn’t take my soul so I shall do it myself.
I failed.
911 Operator: 911 What’s your emerge-
Caller: There is some one staring through the window!
911 Operator: Okay, sir… tell me, what window in your house?
Caller: …
911 Operator: Sir?
Caller: Sorry, they left… they were staring through my bedroom window-
911 Operator: Is all your doors locked?
Caller: Yes. Heavy Breathing Did I?… Wait.
911 Operator: Sir, where is your location?
Caller: U-uh… <REDACTED> … Oh god… Um… my kitchen window is broken.
911 Operator: Okay, calm down sir, what’s your name?
Caller: Reed Dacted…
911 Operator: Don’t worry, help is on the way. Please move away from the window and hide.
Caller: …
911 Operator: Reed?
Caller: Sorry. I heard something… am I allowed to hold a weapon?
911 Operator: … It is advisable in this situation, but refrain from using it, polic-
Caller: <Loud Crash>
911 Operator:… Reed? Sir? … Are you okay?
- Call declined -